My sweet baby girl.

30 weeks down, 10 more to go......

A lot of things have been going on. We have been super busy with getting the nursery done. I had an ultrasound on monday and I officially have 10 weeks until I meet Miss Victoria.


Ultrasound went wonderful. We found out the reason why I'm so big. lol First thing the tech did was the measurements of Tori's head. I learned two things. One: she has a lot of hair apparently. Two: she has a BIG head. Her head is measuring 2 weeks ahead. Then the tech did the rest of the measurements and her belly and her femur are measuring a week ahead. The girl checked the measurements 3 times to make sure that they were right and they were. Tori is roughly weighing 3 lbs 5 oz as of the 1st. For the first time in any of my pregnancies this is the first time I measured ahead. This mama is having a big baby and I'm scared. I have never done this before. I have my 30 week appointment on next monday, it is with the new doctor so I don't feel comfortable asking her what they plan to do. I might ask if I can talk to my doctor for a second while I'm there. I hope that can be done.

29 weeks

Happy 29 weeks to me. We are almost there. Had my appointment on Monday, it went ok. I'm measuring big, well 5 weeks bigger to be exact. He ordered another ultrasound and that is on the 1st. I can't wait to see my little girl again. This will be the last ultrasound that I will ever have for pregnancy. I can't wait. We had our pregnancy photo shoot last night and I'm loving the proofs that my friend Jessica is sending me. I'll share what I have so far.

Hello 3rd Trimester.

Finally my real update.

In 3 hours I will be 28 weeks and officially in my 3rd trimester and for the final time. Honestly this pregnancy has flown by as much as I didn't want it to. I have already hit the point where I am at the same size I was with the end of each pregnancy. I love how they say that you get bigger every time. For me I have got to this size and popped out a baby. Never any bigger or any smaller. Always this size. So here I am at 28 weeks and I look like I normally would at 38-40 weeks. My belly is growing so much that I feel it stretching and let me tell you it hurts. I honestly can see why my husband, my oldest daughter, my 3 best friends, and half my family still think I'm having twins. Please don't take that as I feel the same way. I just see why they feel that way. I'm freaking huge. I can hardly walk it hurts so bad. I have no idea how I'm going to make it another 12 weeks.

Today I started having contractions off and on all day. If it continues my MIL is on standby to drive me to the hospital. Ian is freaking out because he starts his midnight to 8 am shift tonight. On top of that I had the urge to get what baby stuff I have sorted and ready for the nursery. Nesting????????? The nice thing about that was I was able to sit while doing it. I just want to make it 8 more weeks. That is it. Well that is it for now. I'm calling it a night.

26 weeks

I see the end of this pregnancy in the near future. lol. I can't believe that I'll be in the 3rd trimester soon. Tori has finally started kicking. Its non stop now. I don't think she ever sleeps. The crib came today and I finished so of Tori's diapers. I'm getting super excited. I can't wait to bring my baby girl home from the hospital.

25 weeks.

Its been awhile. Mainly because I have been busy and partly because I have been in a funk. I'll actually be 26 weeks in 3 days. It is really hard to believe. Appointments have been okay. I'm getting huge. I'm still measuring big but the doctor thinks that is ok. Tori has been moving a lot today. She was kicking my ribs. It was annoying after awhile but I didn't complain. I really enjoyed her moving. We ordered her crib last week and I can't wait for it to get here. Actually I can't wait to do the nursery. We are using cloth diapers for Kinleigh now. I actually decided to make them myself and they are turning out really nice. So I started making Tori's too. She has 3 different sizes and total with Kinleighs there is going to be 64 diapers all made by me. I also have 2 gdiapers and 1 goodmama. I actually really like the whole cloth diaper thing. I also like the idea of the girls having really cute diapers. I'll post pics when they are all done. I'll also post pics of the nursery when it is done. I think that is it for now.

21 Weeks Today!!!!

21 weeks down, 19 more weeks to go. I had my 20 week appointment yesterday. It went ok. I love my doctor he has been my doctor my last 3 pregnancy. This time around though I'm really bothered by the experience. The only problem is how fast my appointments go. He is probably in the room 2 minutes tops. Long enough to hear the heartbeat and measure my belly and he is out the door. So if I have any questions I have to get them in, in that 2 minute timeframe. So back to my appointment still measuring big and Tori's heartbeat was around 150 bpm. I'm still trying to figure out why my due date is still pushed back by 3 days. The baby is measuring right on target for LMP. My hips and legs are killing me. I'm experiencing the pain that I would if I was 30+ weeks pregnant. I feel Tori kick maybe once a day and that bothers me. I should be feeling it more than that. I'm having a hard time with losing Tori's twin. I don't know why it bothers me so much. All I can think about is: I should have found out the sex of 2 babies not just one. I should have named two babies not just one, I should be feeling 2 babies kicking instead of just one. I know that I'm blessed with a healthy baby and I should be happy with that, but it hurts me to know that there are the "what might have beens". Then I feel crazy for grieving a baby that I only carried for a short while. I'm sick of being a bag of mixed emotions. I just wish that I was still carrying two babies. Since I'm trying to focus on Tori I want to share this: