Sorry for the week in between posts. With being an emotional mess, Kinleigh turning one, my 28th birthday and Kinleigh's birthday party, I have had no time to actually think about what I wanted to post about.
I will say that I'm holding on to hope and faith that the baby was just hiding. Alexis, Trinity & Alayna are all insisting that they are both there. I pray that they are right because I don't think I can bare to see the 3 of them upset again. However, I know that the out for the missing baby is bleak. I do question the location of where the doctor said it was the vanishing twin. The more I look at my scan, the more I think the doctor was in the wrong area. I know that it is me being in denial about the situation.
The night before I found out I was carrying twins, I caught myself searching the internet on signs of carrying twins. The morning of my appointment last monday I found myself googling vanishing twin. Early today I caught myself googling vanishing twin reappeared and missed twin at 11 weeks. I don't know what I'm thinking but I do know that I'm keeping faith.
It doesn't help that I look like I'm 20 + weeks pregnant. I finally broke down today when I realized that there is only one baby now.
I do have an ultrasound tomorrow at 12:45. I pray that the appointment goes well and that I have at least one healthy baby. Please keep me and my family in your thoughts and prayers tonight and tomorrow. I do believe that miracles can happen.
I'll try to update tomorrow after my appointment. If not tomorrow I'll do it on Wednesday for sure.
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