Here I am at 36 weeks. As you can see. I have dropped a lot. Miss Victoria will hopefully be here soon. Not a lot going on here but waiting for this little missy to come.
Lately I have found myself thinking about Tori's twin. For some reason, our loss of the twin is eating at me more and more. I don't like seeing twins when we are out. I don't like the word twins. I hear it and I cringe. It makes me mad that Kate Gosslin or however you spell it can carry 6 babies but my body could not carry 2 and that Octomom could carry 8 and my body could not carry two. I hate hearing at least you are still having one and you should be happy with that. I feel like everyone has forgotten about my sweet angel. Maybe I'm being silly. I just don't want Tori's twin to be forgotten.
I am very happy Tori is healthy. I'm beyond happy that I'm 36 weeks. I'm thankful for what I have. I know it could have been worse. I know people that has been through rougher loses than me. I just hate being torn emotionally and I hate being told to just get over it.
I have to say that Ian has been my rock through it all. He has been there when we loss the baby and he was strong for me. When I bring it up, he is there to listen. I'm thankful for him. He understands why this upsets me.
Sorry for the sad post, I just needed to get it off my chest.
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