38 weeks

Video of Tori Kicking........

38 weeks

I just wish I could get a full nights sleep. I know that if I get some rest that my body will do what it is suppose too. But with all the contractions and the baby kicking in between it just isn't happening. I can't picture being pregnant much longer. I would not wish this on the person I like the least. I seriously have been spoiled by my older 4 girls and the quick easy lasting no longer than 10 hours complete labor and deliveries.

37 weeks 5 days part 3

I'm miserable. All these contractions suck. It feels like my legs are being ripped off like a wishbone. They are right when they say that every pregnancy is different.

37 weeks 5 days part 2.....

Doctor appointment went well. Good thing is all these contractions that I have been having has me dilated 2-3 cm. Now it is just a waiting game. Here is hoping to active labor tonight.

37 weeks 5 days.....

16 days to go and I seriously hope it is tomorrow, well today. My nice contractions that were 2-6 minutes apart slowed down yet again. I can't sleep because they are still 10 minutes apart and intense. They need to do something about this. I'm not sure how much more I can take. What good am I, if I get no sleep. I need to remember to tell the Dr. that her movement has slowed down a lot and that I have been dealing with these contractions and now it is affecting my sleep. As of today, if they were right Tori weighs 7lbs 3oz (roughly).

37 weeks 4 days part 2

Contractions are now 2-6 minutes apart. Just waiting to see if they stay the same. If they do then we will be calling the doctor. If not well then we will see the doctor in the morning anyway. Here's to hoping.

37 weeks and almost 4 days

So I'm still hanging in here and I'm still having contractions. They are very irregular and very intense. Any where from 3-20 minutes apart. I was able to get a nap in earlier. I honestly forgot how tiring this part of  pregnancy is. I'm trying to hold out of going to the hospital as long as possible. I have an appointment on Monday so hopefully I'm dilated enough to be admitted to the hospital. Well that is it for now, I'm going to try to lay down and get some more rest. Hopefully my next post says that I'm in labor.

37 weeks 3 days

The past 3 nights, I have been having contractions. 2 of the nights they were regular for 2 hours and then they would just stop. Then last night they were irregular and very intense. I was able to fall asleep just to be woken up by them a couple hours ago. I also got really sick to my stomach. I really do hope this is the start of labor. I'm not sure how much more that I can take. My bump looks super funny looking. I have honestly never seen it look this way. As this pregnancy comes to an end, I'm just a little sad that this one will be my last. I just wish it was an easier pregnancy so that I would have been able to enjoy it. However, it is what it is and at the end of it I will have a super cute little girl. :)

37 weeks......

No change since the last time I was checked. However, I have been in pain ever since. I'm officially full term. Now I just need her to come. It's 12:39am and I have decided that I needed to pack my hospital bag. I have clothes washing right now, when they are done, I'm going to throw them in the dryer. That way first thing tomorrow morning, my bag will be packed. I need to repack Tori's bag just to make sure everything is in there that I need. The car seat is ready and waiting by the front door. All I need is a baby. :)

36 weeks and 4 days.

If they were right 6 weeks ago on Tori's weight, she should roughly 6 lbs 11 oz. I have my 36/37 week check tomorrow. fingers crossed that I'm dilated more.

36 weeks

Here I am at 36 weeks. As you can see. I have dropped a lot. Miss Victoria will hopefully be here soon. Not a lot going on here but waiting for this little missy to come.

Lately I have found myself thinking about Tori's twin. For some reason, our loss of the twin is eating at me more and more. I don't like seeing twins when we are out. I don't like the word twins. I hear it and I cringe. It makes me mad that Kate Gosslin or however you spell it can carry 6 babies but my body could not carry 2 and that Octomom could carry 8 and my body could not carry two. I hate hearing at least you are still having one and you should be happy with that. I feel like everyone has forgotten about my sweet angel. Maybe I'm being silly. I just don't want Tori's twin to be forgotten.

I am very happy Tori is healthy. I'm beyond happy that I'm 36 weeks. I'm thankful for what I have. I know it could have been worse. I know people that has been through rougher loses than me. I just hate being torn emotionally and I hate being told to just get over it.

I have to say that Ian has been my rock through it all. He has been there when we loss the baby and he was strong for me. When I bring it up, he is there to listen. I'm thankful for him. He understands why this upsets me.

Sorry for the sad post, I just needed to get it off my chest.

34 weeks and counting.......

There has been a lot going on here. I have so much to post and I have pictures to post but my email isn't opening on this computer, so they will have to wait until another day.


The nursery is completely done. Ian did an amazing job on it. I love it. Now all I need is a baby to put in it.

My baby shower was on the 13th of August. All of my best friends but one was here. It turned out nice and we got a lot of nice things. I'm very thankful to have the friends and family that I do. It truly means a lot to Ian and I.

I'm currently taking it easy for the next week and a half because I'm having contractions and I'm dilated to 1. Yes I know to some that isn't a big deal. But for me and my body, it is the start of things. I love being told that it is normal to be dilated to 1 when you have other children. I just laugh because that isn't the case for me. 3 weeks ago, I was tightly closed, so the main show is getting ready to start. haha. The contractions are awful at times, I had them from Sunday night, then by tuesday afternoon they had turned into pressure contractions. With that, I called the dr. office wednesday morning and got an appointment. And that is when I found out that I was dilated.

Just for the record, pregnancy is different for everyone. What is normal for you, might not be normal for me. Just sayin! :p

I'll try to update more but the computer is upstairs now. I'm too lazy to run up and down the stairs to get on the computer.